why do we have to grow up?

Last night was my dance studio's dance recital and I was able to work backstage in quick change and in the wings during the show!  The show was absolutely amazing and it was so much fun being able to see all of my close friends I use to dance with.  I hadn't been up to the studio much this past year so it was such a great night to help everyone get ready before the show and catch up with them.  It was also great to see my old teachers again and help them put on an amazing show.  It was very different watching the show from the wings of the stage and not being in the dance recital.  As I was watching the show I started to get chocked up during one of the dances knowing that I am not standing here waiting for my cue to go on...I was standing here as an audience member.  It took me for a loop and really hit me that I am growing up and life is changing.  It was really tough for me to stand on the side of the stage and not run out on stage and start dancing with them all like it use to be.  As I watched I realized that I am so grateful to have danced at Martell and to have met these amazing people that are in my life.  It sucks to grow up and have to leave something behind that you love.  Yes, I was always the girl that was ready to leave high school and move onto bigger and better things in my life but I would give anything to go back to the days where I was dancing almost  days a week at Martell and loving life just dancing.  But things change and people grow up and have to face the world but I am fortunate enough to be able to go back and reminisce on the amazing memories I have made at Martell.  And always know that I have a place at Martell and friends that I can count on there.  And the people and atmosphere of Martell gave me the passion and love for dance that I have now.  So yes, you caught me, I am the girl who is always looking into the future but wouldn't mind going back into the past for a couple days.  If you had the chance to go back...wouldn't you?

And remember to just breathe,

Kim :]

lunch with an old friend

Today I went to lunch with a good friend from High School, Stephanie.  We decided to go to Friendly's for lunch and I was ecstatic, I haven't been to Friendly's in years!  Anyways, we got to talking and I realized that life has gone by before my eyes so fast!  I realized that we graduated 2 years ago, I just finished my sophomore year at Akron and in just 2 more years I will be graduating from college and be on my own.  I then thought my sister is graduating from high school in 2 weekends and going off to school in the fall, also my baby brother who I still think is 5 years old in my mind will be getting his license in October.  I haven't stopped thinking about how my life has gone by so fast and there is still so much I want to accomplish.  I now have a different view on life and to live life to the fullest from now on because you only get 1 shot in this world so make your dreams come true!  And I learned all of this from lunch with an old friend...weird how that happens huh?!

And remember to just breathe,

Kim :]